I missed Church on Sunday, which is very rare for me. Then, to top it of, I missed work on Monday, which only happens once in a blue moon. You see I was sick and usually I wouldn’t let something like “being sick” hamper me from going to work, but I felt like a truck had run over me a couple of times. What’s worse is that I felt guilty about being absent. I felt that I let down the DL Media Team, David, Bob, Cher, the partners, even Pastor Ken himself. The book of Psalms gives guidance in our experience and expression of guilt.
1 A psalm of David. Oh, what joy for those whose rebellion is forgiven, whose sin is put out of sight! 2 Yes, what joy for those whose record the LORD has cleared of sin, whose lives are lived in complete honesty! 3 When I refused to confess my sin, I was weak and miserable, and I groaned all day long. 4 Day and night your hand of discipline was heavy on me. My strength evaporated like water in the summer heat. 5 Finally, I confessed all my sins to you and stopped trying to hide them. I said to myself, “I will confess my rebellion to the LORD.” And you forgave me! All my guilt is gone. 6 Therefore, let all the godly confess their rebellion to you while there is time, that they may not drown in the floodwaters of judgment. Psalm 32:1-6 NLT
The psalmists do not deny guilt, but rather acknowledge that admitting it is necessary. They offer it to God, and as a result of their confession and brokenness they receive divine forgiveness and blessing. In the process, their guilt actually becomes worship!
“The sacrifice you want is a broken spirit. A broken and repentant heart, O God, you will not despise”. Psalm 51:17 NLT
“Wash me clean from my guilt. Purify me from my sin”. Psalm 51:2 NLT
The psalmist teaches us that the goal of human life is not perfection, but wholeness. Perfection is incompatible with growth. Wholeness is not. We can wholly love another and still make mistakes. Recognizing our moral weakness, owning our failures, honestly confessing them before God (all actions that arise from, or accompany feelings of guilt) are all vital components to a thriving and healthy relationship with God and others. This is important to recognize, because much guilt arises from perfectionism – either in regard to ourselves or our perception of God. When we expect perfection from ourselves or assume God expects perfection from us, we are bound to experience unhealthy guilt. We are sinners. Our best attempts will be flawed. Likewise, God is holy. God’s love is so strong, that rather than rejecting us at the first sign of sin, weakness, frailty, and flaws, our need for HIM actually draw God to us.
“Brothers, listen! In this man JESUS there is forgiveness for your sins. Everyone who believes in him is freed from all guilt and declared right with God”. Acts 13:38,39 NLT
Grace and Peace